Questions….

….question, questions, questions.

That’s mostly what’s been going through my head the last couple of days. Questions that I know I will get the answers to at my first consultation, probably. But there will still be many questions that remain unanswered, even a few weeks hence.

First off, the Good versus Bad diagnosis, post-biopsy. If the former, then what? Will they give me a whole new knee? Will I be able to walk normally afterwards? How long will I be incapacitated? If the latter: will they cut my leg off completely? Will I have a false one? Will I have a wheelchair (temporary or permanent)? Have I got secondaries? Will I drive again? How long until I do? How are the kids going to get home from school in the meantime?

Money: do I qualify for Statutory Sick Pay? I’m self-employed and have no idea. (note to self: find out)

I realise that most of these questions are a bit previous. But when you’ve had news of this type you can’t help but think like this.

Everyone that we have told so far, which is mainly family and close friends, have been incredibly supportive. So thanks guys, we really do appreciate you being there for us (cheesy I know, but so true).

Finally I’m expecting to be seen by my consultant on Monday – unconfirmed as yet though. My GP has agreed to prescribe me Lorazepam, which is a sedative that should help me overcome my severe anxiety before and during the consultation and biopsy. I won’t be able to drive though as I won’t be in a fit state! So thanks again Doc, you don’t know how much it means.

UPDATE: my appointment with the specialist is Monday 18 February at 10.15.