2 Apr 2008
Grateful
Today is not a good day for me. Not for any particular reason; it’s just one of those days when I woke up feeling pretty negative. Like we all do. After a bit of a cry and a chat I started to feel a little better. Not immensely but some. The enormity of what is happening to me is overwhelming sometimes. I know I have to deal with a bit at a time and I’m trying to do that but, sometimes, well, it’s too much.
So today I’m publicly being thankful (and not before time) for everyone that’s been there for me so far and helping me get through this (in no particular order after the first few – you’ll see what I mean):
My wife
My kids
My sister
My parents
My extended family
My friends
My work colleagues
My doctors
My nurses
Everyone that’s sent a comment
You, my readers. Thank you. Most sincereley.
I’ll be fine tomorrow, I promise.
We all have these sort of days even if we have no problems, but most of us have some I guess. We keep up with you on this site after els showed me how to access it! Enough said. Ben says he has heard from Emily and you can be sure that you’re all pretty often in our thoughts just at present. The hospital thing is pretty different if you have not had much to do with it. I am spending quite a bit of time around hospitals with my mum just at present, I realise that I haven’t got a clue and have to come back and look things up because I haven’t asked the right questions. You know I think you will look ok bald, have known you for so long I don’t think it will make any difference to the way we see you. Hang in there! M
Mary nd Mike
April 2nd, 2008 at 7:49 pmpermalink
Andy,
We all have down days. When I was diagnosed I didn’t let myself cry as I thought that was “giving in” but after 4 years of it I now know that crying releases the tension that builds up and then you’re even stronger to fight harder.
SO, have a cry, let it out. You’ll actually find that this blog is a very clever way of putting your feelings down too. I’ve started writing stuff down every time I come back from an appointment/scan/results and it frees it all up. I’m always really down after results and finding out my prognosis and things, but the next day I’m back on target to beat this bloody thing… I’m sure you’re very similar.
Am thinking of you lots – drop me a text whenever you need. I bet you’re amazed at your PICC line – brilliant inventions! Keep those blinkers on!
Lotsa love x
Carol
April 2nd, 2008 at 8:11 pmpermalink
Hang on in there Andy, can’t offer much except to say that there is so much love and so many prayers being said for you, that will help to carry you through the bad days even though you may not know it at the time! Dig deep and get strong to fight this ‘bloody thing’.
Shed loads of love xxx
Linz
April 2nd, 2008 at 10:32 pmpermalink
Keep going m8!
J
Johnny
April 3rd, 2008 at 11:53 ampermalink
Huge hug xxx
Arna
April 3rd, 2008 at 1:03 pmpermalink
Andy, I’m over here from Meg’s blog–must keep tabs on the webmaster. You’re in my thoughts with some regularity–hang in.
Patti
April 3rd, 2008 at 8:13 pmpermalink
Hang in there Andy. You have so much support and this blog just shows part of it. You are bound to have down days. Your system is going through several Alton Tower parks of roller coaster rides at the moment. Someone else has already said crying is a release and it will help you release some of the stress that is building up inside you. We are all pulling for you, Sarah and the family. We care and doing the only thing we can for you at the moment, and that is pray. Best wishes. Jenny D
Jenny Dibsdall
April 6th, 2008 at 6:28 pmpermalink
Andy, please give us an update and tell us you are feeling better. You are in our prayers….. Charlie also asked me to pass on his best wishes and hopes you are doing ok.
Graham
Graham Crawshaw
April 7th, 2008 at 9:06 pmpermalink